Monday, March 30, 2009
I didnt like what i saw.
Although, i honestly from the bottom of my heart know
theres no one else to put the blame on but myself.
At the same time i know that if i had a chance to do it all over again, i would
probably do the same thing,
not because i want to but because that's just who i am.
The person i am takes over who i try to be or want to be any day any moment.
I try to be more disciplined but i can't, im just wild and stubborn.
I try to be more matured and think further ahead, and i do in some senses,
but i don't in many ways.
But everyone just needs to give me time, because they don't realize
that as much as they feel bad or unsatisfied or disappointed in me,
i feel so much more worse than they could ever possibly imagine.
Ultimately everything that i do, i bear the consequences.
And they might feel affected,
but they're not even close, not even.
By telling me 'i told you so' isnt gonna help at all and if you do say that
i'll probably tell you to fuck off.
And don't comfort me because that'l make me cry.
If you dont do anything it might be better, but i might also take it as you dont care.
Dont ask me me what you should do then
cuz i'll get mad, and how would i know what you should do.
It seems to me it should come to you automatically what you should do,
but at the same time, i know whatever it is youre gonna do is not gonna work anyway.
So i dont know.
That how retarded i am.
Im a fool. But so are you.
We're so imperfect,
its annoying.
9:26 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
EVERYTHING is pissing me off today.
You know what really annoys me?
When someone makes you mad, and you both know that youre mad.
But the offender acts really nice and pretends its all ok.
See that just makes it all worse.
Anyway yeah, i have to write a 1500 narrative essay.
I have absolutely no idea what to write on.
And yeah, today i've really learned what people mean when they say with a lie comes another lie, and another, and another.
9:45 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
I still really wanna go to the beach.
Its started getting cold again tho:(
Right now, its 3.39am.
I just woke up cuz i was really thirsty.
I had a dream i was in school and i kept buying sodas and drinks but i was still extremely thirsty.
LOL Strange stuff strange stuff.
You know how sometimes you really have to pee when youre asleep
and you get those dreams where like you keep going to the bathroom
but you still constantly have to pee, like youre still 'omg urgent!'
LOL YEAH, same stuff.
How weird.
Anyway, you see im kinda down.
Im listening to all these songs and i happen to be on my rag.
SIGH, i wish my cramps would go away right this instance.
Just poof! i want to be a wizrd, yes a wizard.
I've BEEN wanting to be one since i read harry potter not gonna lie. lol
But twilight is weird, and no i dont want to be a vampire.
its almost exactly like the book zatilah and i used to read, how to marry a millionaire vampire.
I liked that book so i refuse to read twilight.
And we used to read this one book Trouble in Heels.
LOL and we were obsessed with the main character Roberto bartolinni or something.
HAHAH sounds like roberto cavali.
Anyway, he's supposed to be Italian so yeah..all the ili-ness.
Yeap, im just gonna keep the rest of my musings to myself
cuz im emo like that. lol
Byee.
Love is to share, mine is for you
3:32 AM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Omg omg omggg!
Volleyball was soooo goood today!
I want to play tomrrr someone needs to take me to the beach seriously.
I. WANT. BEACH. VOLLEYBALL. TOMR!
Cuz its friday:)
No party i just want volleyball at the beach with the sun and all that shiz nizz.
Yayyy its spring then it'l be summer then we graduate!
then it'll be beach volleyball erryday!
But you know what,
I dont think its gonna happen.
lol
I have SO MUCH shit to do.
I have to write a reflection tomr for english on Hamlet.
And then i have a chapter packet due tomr for physiology + a test/
Anddd...that about it i hope.
But its enough to last me the whole night trust me.
Boy, am i excited.
snap back to reality:(
Seeez yaaazz.
10:31 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
What can i say?
It was great while it lasted and thats how it'll always stay.
No hard feelings.
Done with guilt-tripping, this actually makes me feel better in a way that i cant
quite explain.
oh wait whhhhat.
Is it just me or did that just sound like a rap?
lol well, it wasnt meant to be in case you misunderstand, it just turned out that way.
Psh maybe im just gifted.
haha.
This week was bore whore:(
I hate school i hate school i hate school so much homeworkkk.
Grace and i went shopping tho, but we were soooo tired
like while we were walking around the mall, our eyes were watering.
hahah.
I didnt buy anything for myself.
We got stuff for kenny's birthday from Urban.
<3 that place seriously.
Its so expensive tho, why cant we all just be rich.
Communism isnt actually that bad tho, if you think about it.
I mean the theorys great, we all share the wealth.
But i guess...reality doesnt really coincide with theories perfectly.
Thats why we experiment.
And wtf am i going on about.
lol oh but seriously guys are SUCH jerks like im not even kidding.
This guy asked me out on a date and i said no because
he's hella ugly tryna holla at me?
Nuh uh fool , you aint gettin any.
hahaha anyway i mean he was all nice before and now
he just dogs me all the time.
Whatta loser -.-
I hate how the world works.
Im gonna go eat and get fat now.
BYE
9:07 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Dont you HATE it when youre having a great dream and someone wakes you up?
or if u just randomly wake up by yourself? which is worse because you have no one to blame.
I do, and i freakin hate it.
Anyways, my dads leaving tomr:(
Flying off to Korea and then back to Malaysia.
Its Friday the 13th, not exactly a great day to take off i would say.
I made a new bank account today.
Under Bank of America.
I got to choose my card design so i chose this
It looks better in person i mean card.
And whats soo cool is everytime i make a purchase with this card
they donate money to the needy.
Nice:D
I think it makes more sense than gettting cards like this
Ok Hello Kitty, seriously?
First of all, its not even pretty; secondly, they're not there for a cause, literally.
But the first thought i had was about how philoe would
probably go crazy over this.
They even have cheque books in this. *rolls eye hard*
I never really understood the whole hello kitty craze.
I mean..WHY?
Rmb there was this period of time where McDonalds was selling
hello kitty stuffed toys and everyone went beserk and would get to mcdonalds everyday even before dawn to get in line.
And eventually stomp on each other to death.
..WHY??
Maybe its just me.
I dont think its cute, honestly look at Garfield.
At least it looks like a cat.
And its actually a character, they have a comic based on it.
Whereas Hello Kitty..
Even the name..just pisses me off.
But yeah...i guess you can say its an icon. kinda.
Idk what but some kind of icon.
I wish i was that lucky and could earn so much like that.
I'd draw something that looks
somewhat or less like say maybe an anteater,
colour it in pink and name it hello ant eater.
Then make calculators and pilows and lunch boxes with my pink hello ant-eaters
all over it and make awesome loads of money.
I want that to happen to me too! How come i nvr get so lucky!
I hate cats, they're so creepy.
And also psycho people are known to adore cats.
Any linkage i wondder..
9:18 PM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Bow wow's so cute, why cant Grace Mun agree with me??
We can never agree on guys, its actually quite sad.
Its been school home, school home this past week.
We have no school on friday! oh i dont grace does.
We were supposed to take our permit test, but
once more we procrastinate, but this time with valid reason, kinda.
Wait we always did have valid reasons.
Well anyway this time Grace has a parrty to go to
and i have a family dinner since my dads over.
But things aren't really going along too well it seems.
Hmm...
Anyhoo,
i cant wait till spring break.
It'l be a blast, hopefully:D
Right now, i should be doing my homework.
I hate homework, i sound like an 8th grader but unfortunately i really do hate homework...
I got my paycheck but im broke again.
How does this work exactly?
HOW?
Well i gave my mom 50 cuz i owe her like infinity for the phone bill,
and i watched a movie, ate pho, bought coffeebean thats it.
I hate the world, why do we have money.
i wish we survived on seashells or like strands of hair once more.
8:51 PM
Monday, March 30, 2009
I didnt like what i saw.
Although, i honestly from the bottom of my heart know
theres no one else to put the blame on but myself.
At the same time i know that if i had a chance to do it all over again, i would
probably do the same thing,
not because i want to but because that's just who i am.
The person i am takes over who i try to be or want to be any day any moment.
I try to be more disciplined but i can't, im just wild and stubborn.
I try to be more matured and think further ahead, and i do in some senses,
but i don't in many ways.
But everyone just needs to give me time, because they don't realize
that as much as they feel bad or unsatisfied or disappointed in me,
i feel so much more worse than they could ever possibly imagine.
Ultimately everything that i do, i bear the consequences.
And they might feel affected,
but they're not even close, not even.
By telling me 'i told you so' isnt gonna help at all and if you do say that
i'll probably tell you to fuck off.
And don't comfort me because that'l make me cry.
If you dont do anything it might be better, but i might also take it as you dont care.
Dont ask me me what you should do then
cuz i'll get mad, and how would i know what you should do.
It seems to me it should come to you automatically what you should do,
but at the same time, i know whatever it is youre gonna do is not gonna work anyway.
So i dont know.
That how retarded i am.
Im a fool. But so are you.
We're so imperfect,
its annoying.
»9:26 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
EVERYTHING is pissing me off today.
You know what really annoys me?
When someone makes you mad, and you both know that youre mad.
But the offender acts really nice and pretends its all ok.
See that just makes it all worse.
Anyway yeah, i have to write a 1500 narrative essay.
I have absolutely no idea what to write on.
And yeah, today i've really learned what people mean when they say with a lie comes another lie, and another, and another.
»9:45 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
I still really wanna go to the beach.
Its started getting cold again tho:(
Right now, its 3.39am.
I just woke up cuz i was really thirsty.
I had a dream i was in school and i kept buying sodas and drinks but i was still extremely thirsty.
LOL Strange stuff strange stuff.
You know how sometimes you really have to pee when youre asleep
and you get those dreams where like you keep going to the bathroom
but you still constantly have to pee, like youre still 'omg urgent!'
LOL YEAH, same stuff.
How weird.
Anyway, you see im kinda down.
Im listening to all these songs and i happen to be on my rag.
SIGH, i wish my cramps would go away right this instance.
Just poof! i want to be a wizrd, yes a wizard.
I've BEEN wanting to be one since i read harry potter not gonna lie. lol
But twilight is weird, and no i dont want to be a vampire.
its almost exactly like the book zatilah and i used to read, how to marry a millionaire vampire.
I liked that book so i refuse to read twilight.
And we used to read this one book Trouble in Heels.
LOL and we were obsessed with the main character Roberto bartolinni or something.
HAHAH sounds like roberto cavali.
Anyway, he's supposed to be Italian so yeah..all the ili-ness.
Yeap, im just gonna keep the rest of my musings to myself
cuz im emo like that. lol
Byee.
Love is to share, mine is for you
»3:32 AM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Omg omg omggg!
Volleyball was soooo goood today!
I want to play tomrrr someone needs to take me to the beach seriously.
I. WANT. BEACH. VOLLEYBALL. TOMR!
Cuz its friday:)
No party i just want volleyball at the beach with the sun and all that shiz nizz.
Yayyy its spring then it'l be summer then we graduate!
then it'll be beach volleyball erryday!
But you know what,
I dont think its gonna happen.
lol
I have SO MUCH shit to do.
I have to write a reflection tomr for english on Hamlet.
And then i have a chapter packet due tomr for physiology + a test/
Anddd...that about it i hope.
But its enough to last me the whole night trust me.
Boy, am i excited.
snap back to reality:(
Seeez yaaazz.
»10:31 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
What can i say?
It was great while it lasted and thats how it'll always stay.
No hard feelings.
Done with guilt-tripping, this actually makes me feel better in a way that i cant
quite explain.
oh wait whhhhat.
Is it just me or did that just sound like a rap?
lol well, it wasnt meant to be in case you misunderstand, it just turned out that way.
Psh maybe im just gifted.
haha.
This week was bore whore:(
I hate school i hate school i hate school so much homeworkkk.
Grace and i went shopping tho, but we were soooo tired
like while we were walking around the mall, our eyes were watering.
hahah.
I didnt buy anything for myself.
We got stuff for kenny's birthday from Urban.
<3 that place seriously.
Its so expensive tho, why cant we all just be rich.
Communism isnt actually that bad tho, if you think about it.
I mean the theorys great, we all share the wealth.
But i guess...reality doesnt really coincide with theories perfectly.
Thats why we experiment.
And wtf am i going on about.
lol oh but seriously guys are SUCH jerks like im not even kidding.
This guy asked me out on a date and i said no because
he's hella ugly tryna holla at me?
Nuh uh fool , you aint gettin any.
hahaha anyway i mean he was all nice before and now
he just dogs me all the time.
Whatta loser -.-
I hate how the world works.
Im gonna go eat and get fat now.
BYE
»9:07 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Dont you HATE it when youre having a great dream and someone wakes you up?
or if u just randomly wake up by yourself? which is worse because you have no one to blame.
I do, and i freakin hate it.
Anyways, my dads leaving tomr:(
Flying off to Korea and then back to Malaysia.
Its Friday the 13th, not exactly a great day to take off i would say.
I made a new bank account today.
Under Bank of America.
I got to choose my card design so i chose this
It looks better in person i mean card.
And whats soo cool is everytime i make a purchase with this card
they donate money to the needy.
Nice:D
I think it makes more sense than gettting cards like this
Ok Hello Kitty, seriously?
First of all, its not even pretty; secondly, they're not there for a cause, literally.
But the first thought i had was about how philoe would
probably go crazy over this.
They even have cheque books in this. *rolls eye hard*
I never really understood the whole hello kitty craze.
I mean..WHY?
Rmb there was this period of time where McDonalds was selling
hello kitty stuffed toys and everyone went beserk and would get to mcdonalds everyday even before dawn to get in line.
And eventually stomp on each other to death.
..WHY??
Maybe its just me.
I dont think its cute, honestly look at Garfield.
At least it looks like a cat.
And its actually a character, they have a comic based on it.
Whereas Hello Kitty..
Even the name..just pisses me off.
But yeah...i guess you can say its an icon. kinda.
Idk what but some kind of icon.
I wish i was that lucky and could earn so much like that.
I'd draw something that looks
somewhat or less like say maybe an anteater,
colour it in pink and name it hello ant eater.
Then make calculators and pilows and lunch boxes with my pink hello ant-eaters
all over it and make awesome loads of money.
I want that to happen to me too! How come i nvr get so lucky!
I hate cats, they're so creepy.
And also psycho people are known to adore cats.
Any linkage i wondder..
»9:18 PM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Bow wow's so cute, why cant Grace Mun agree with me??
We can never agree on guys, its actually quite sad.
Its been school home, school home this past week.
We have no school on friday! oh i dont grace does.
We were supposed to take our permit test, but
once more we procrastinate, but this time with valid reason, kinda.
Wait we always did have valid reasons.
Well anyway this time Grace has a parrty to go to
and i have a family dinner since my dads over.
But things aren't really going along too well it seems.
Hmm...
Anyhoo,
i cant wait till spring break.
It'l be a blast, hopefully:D
Right now, i should be doing my homework.
I hate homework, i sound like an 8th grader but unfortunately i really do hate homework...
I got my paycheck but im broke again.
How does this work exactly?
HOW?
Well i gave my mom 50 cuz i owe her like infinity for the phone bill,
and i watched a movie, ate pho, bought coffeebean thats it.
I hate the world, why do we have money.
i wish we survived on seashells or like strands of hair once more.
»8:51 PM
I realized how fun it is to look back on past happenings. So for future's sake, here we go
It looks better in person i mean card.
Ok Hello Kitty, seriously?