Friday, July 30, 2010
I GOT A MOFUGGINNNN JOBB!!! Heheheeheehohoo, i've actually been working for like 3 weeks already. DAMN times FLIES!
I think my blog is boring because i stopped writing about how i feel and my thoughts but more of what i did and LOTS of unnecessary stuff. I dont like the idea of people reading my emotions. Its just so........invading. And i know thats what blogs are for yadayada but blogs are also for updating,right? WHICH i fail at too actually because i "update" once every lifetime. wow, i fail. But yeah i dont knowww....i wish i could just open up and write everything down. It seems like it would release the burden but..not really. I have a contradiction for every thought in my head. I compare everything, its sad and annoying. I have debates with myself in my head like literally for everything.
Well, recently, i've been effing up a lot at home. I put my mom through a lot. I complain but really, i made her what she is now. which is paranoid and on my ass. paranoid like if i dont pick up her phone, she thinks i mightve just died somewhere. Seriously today after work i couldnt pick up her phonecall because my phone died and she thought i got into an accident so her and grace and went on a hunt for me -___________- Too much love mom. Love CAN be too much, better more than less though right? right. Appreciation is what i need to learn, to express. Because i know she knows i appreciate everything she does deep down, but im such a bitch and never show it or even worse show the contrary that its very understandable if she has doubts. Oh mom. But " all that i am or ever hope to be, i owe it my angel mother" Its true.
IM GOING SHOPPING TOMR AT MELROSE BECAUSE I GOT PAYED TODAY YAYYYUHH. Im gonna buy myself a nice bag and some clothes and get my nails done and eat good food. No longer a broke bitch:)
omg can i please marry himmm?
11:30 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Hello! Im soo tiredd but i wanted to blog before i sleep:) I promised myself im gonna sleep earlier from now on cuz ive really been breaking out ALOT recently and i have obscenely big and obvious eyebags like really everyone makes fun about me for it. I literally have like triple layer bags. its so gross. So yeahh. Andddd guess whatt, i have a job interview. My moms friend hooked me up with the job so please please pleaseee let me get it! I REALLLLYYY need it. I'll work my ass off..or try to. Haha well yeah, short post cuz i gotta keep up to my promise and sleep early although its past 3 right now but tonight doesnt really count cuz i got home like an hour ago. Ok goodnight!
3:00 AM
Friday, July 2, 2010
Nothing much has been going on this past few days. Just the same old - hanging out with people. Nothing new like a job or surprise money in the mail. Only progress thats kindaa been going on is school, which im still glad about. But its not even 100% done, only in the process but no complaints. Im still thankful. Damn...life is though. lol I need a haircut but im even too broke for that shit. Good game.
Tryna stand on my two feet.
12:11 AM
Friday, July 30, 2010
I GOT A MOFUGGINNNN JOBB!!! Heheheeheehohoo, i've actually been working for like 3 weeks already. DAMN times FLIES!
I think my blog is boring because i stopped writing about how i feel and my thoughts but more of what i did and LOTS of unnecessary stuff. I dont like the idea of people reading my emotions. Its just so........invading. And i know thats what blogs are for yadayada but blogs are also for updating,right? WHICH i fail at too actually because i "update" once every lifetime. wow, i fail. But yeah i dont knowww....i wish i could just open up and write everything down. It seems like it would release the burden but..not really. I have a contradiction for every thought in my head. I compare everything, its sad and annoying. I have debates with myself in my head like literally for everything.
Well, recently, i've been effing up a lot at home. I put my mom through a lot. I complain but really, i made her what she is now. which is paranoid and on my ass. paranoid like if i dont pick up her phone, she thinks i mightve just died somewhere. Seriously today after work i couldnt pick up her phonecall because my phone died and she thought i got into an accident so her and grace and went on a hunt for me -___________- Too much love mom. Love CAN be too much, better more than less though right? right. Appreciation is what i need to learn, to express. Because i know she knows i appreciate everything she does deep down, but im such a bitch and never show it or even worse show the contrary that its very understandable if she has doubts. Oh mom. But " all that i am or ever hope to be, i owe it my angel mother" Its true.
IM GOING SHOPPING TOMR AT MELROSE BECAUSE I GOT PAYED TODAY YAYYYUHH. Im gonna buy myself a nice bag and some clothes and get my nails done and eat good food. No longer a broke bitch:)
omg can i please marry himmm?
»11:30 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Hello! Im soo tiredd but i wanted to blog before i sleep:) I promised myself im gonna sleep earlier from now on cuz ive really been breaking out ALOT recently and i have obscenely big and obvious eyebags like really everyone makes fun about me for it. I literally have like triple layer bags. its so gross. So yeahh. Andddd guess whatt, i have a job interview. My moms friend hooked me up with the job so please please pleaseee let me get it! I REALLLLYYY need it. I'll work my ass off..or try to. Haha well yeah, short post cuz i gotta keep up to my promise and sleep early although its past 3 right now but tonight doesnt really count cuz i got home like an hour ago. Ok goodnight!
»3:00 AM
Friday, July 2, 2010
Nothing much has been going on this past few days. Just the same old - hanging out with people. Nothing new like a job or surprise money in the mail. Only progress thats kindaa been going on is school, which im still glad about. But its not even 100% done, only in the process but no complaints. Im still thankful. Damn...life is though. lol I need a haircut but im even too broke for that shit. Good game.
I realized how fun it is to look back on past happenings. So for future's sake, here we go